Weekend was good, better than usual. Had some energy to do more than move on and off the couch to the kitchen/bathroom. :) Tried a different Belgian place than the usual that’s a few blocks from my apartment, but sadly the fries weren’t even close. Did see some random things though – a Hanukkah parade and drunken Carolers. I have the week of Christmas off (half the residents work Christmas week, the other half New Years week) so getting through this week and then – some glorious time OFF!!!!

I haven’t been around in these parts much at all recently, boo :( Residency is a time consuming affair for sure! I’m looking forward to Thanksgiving – I’m lucky to have it off as well as black friday, and then on call on Saturday. Been settling into things more in residency, I always told myself each day would be better, but it’s finally at the point where I know that is has. The !!omg!! I don’t know what to do!!! help!!! ahhh!!! has calmed down a fair amount. So now it’s time to transition into anticipating things more, managing the 5000 tasks in my head better, etc. But things are looking up, and I hope it snows soon. :) The first snow is very magical!!

While my hours were really long, Wolfie went to have a vacation with my mom. Lucky for me, my mom loves to have Wolfie and it’s a good break for me knowing he’s being well taken care of and I can just come home and sleep. I went to visit him and took a little walk the other week. He’s back home with me now :)

I saw these burrs and thought they would make a good shot… unfortunately they also got all over Wolfie and his paw and so had to abort the walk early to come home and cut those burrs from his hair.

Here was Wolfie running and playing before he met the burrs.

Being an intern is frustrating. As one can imagine, being at the bottom of the totem pole has it’s consequences. And I’ll just leave it at that.

I have a fireplace in my apartment, and I got to use it over the weekend. I used duralogs since I don’t have a screen yet and didn’t want real wood that crackles all over the place. Took some shots of the lovely fire.

That’s about all :) Hope you all have been well and staying warm!!

I’ve been on night time duty this month so far and it hasn’t been too bad. It’s a different change of pace and there is much that I feel comfortable doing that a few months ago I would not have. Progress :)

Overall though, I remember 2nd year of medical school being the dark year – the year where you question what you’re doing, why you’re doing it, and why your life is just so miserable. I’m sure internship in the end will turn out to be the dark year of residency but trying my best to work through it with a smile, even though some days I just come home and I cry. :( Sheer exhaustion doesn’t help the cause either though!!

I can’t believe fall is here – the air is much colder and soon enough there might be some snow. I love snow, and I look forward to the first magical snowfall of the year. :) I don’t really like the cold very much though, but at least at work I don’t have to change what I wear much – just bring some kind of extra fleece along for the cold hospital nights. :)

And how are things going for you :)

This plate is good for a chuckle… I don’t know what’s been with my luck of late but my hard drive crashed on my computer, and I got into a car accident yesterday and got a nice little bump on my cheek and spent time in the ER instead of at work. I’m ok – I’m known for my smile at work – but this week it’s going to be a little lopsided as face face really hurts when I smile and the cheek is swollen so the one side of my mouth doesn’t raise up right. Life sometimes…

So my week off turned out very different than I imagined – I ended up kind of just in a daze hibernative (I made that word up ;) ) state just not really feeling the fact that I’m really sad about Papa passing. It’s just hard to grasp all of that with all the background of my Dad passing a year ago along with being in residency and all the difficulties of being a resident. I did enjoy sleeping more though and being able to watch my favorite guilty pleasure tv shows :) And I didn’t get to see everyone I wanted to, but I did get to see people I haven’t seen in a while. :)

How was your weekend?

Hello everyone… It’s been so long. Residency continues to be tough but I am workig through it best I can :) I was able to go visit Boston during labor day and see some folks there although as always, it was far too short! I sometimes feel that my life is just one big rush to another rush with mediocrly completed tasks between. I’m never quite able to spend enough time, my mind is always elsewhere – wondering about where I need to be next and how I’m stressed and tired – and life just is not satisfying lived like this but… Not sure how to do it all any different! This is at work and at home too. I just want everything – I want to be in a field that is known for a very hard lifestyle, I want to stay in good contact with my family and friends, I want to enjoy Wolfie and I want rest too!

Overall though, I’m shocked it’s fall. I’m excited that I have vacation next week with nothing to do and my goal is just cleaning up my life! And blogging more :)

I’m still around… long, long hours. Tired most of the time, sleep deprived. Hope that in the end it is worth it all. I miss all of you guys and just the downtime. Hope to have some soon – was on call this past weekend.

If you haven’t noticed a theme here, it’s the lack of time that I’ve been struggling with. It’s not something that was unexpected, but I had forgotten what it feels like to have this time crunch and then be exhausted so much. It just feels like burn out – I don’t really feel like taking pictures because I’m tired and it’s too much effort to figure out how to shoot things, I’m too tired to make a real effort to cook, too tired for this and that. In addition, we’re putting my grandfather on hospice and I haven’t even had the time to think about that or even get upset about it. I need the time to kind of let down my guard and feel that kind of emotion and there just isn’t much of that. It’s the time of year too where my Dad was sick and I was in the hospital all the time with my mom caring for him – and it’s just not even on my mind. I worry about my friends who have started internship and how they are surviving or other friends who are going through difficult times, but I don’t really have the time to check in with them besides a random text here and there that really doesn’t cover it. :( Either way, I really have to get to bed now, no more time to contemplate – tomorrow will be here before I know it.