So to antagonize the dreary, in the dumps posts of late, I’ll talk about what I like about starting internship.

I like being able to be who I want to be in medicine. We all have different ideas about what kind of doctor is best – some people like bluntness, others like things to be said kindly, some want compassion, others want efficiency… I think it’s most important to be who I want to be and act how I feel I would want a doctor to be. The one antagonizing point about that is that it’s really not about me. It’s about the patient and what they want in a physician, so learning how to be a little more fluid in your style – being direct when needed, softer when things are upsetting etc is important. Reading faces and body language is important. Learning good chit chat is good. Either way, I like not being some poor tossed off medical student and a real member of the healthcare team.

Speaking of which, I did work with a medical student today, and I liked that very much. I was involved with a student run clinic during my time in medical school and it was very important to me. One of the reasons why was being involved with medical education. It’s hard journey so far, and I like to try to be a positive part of the journey and provide an encouraging friendly environment with lots of learning. It’s hard when you need to get things done and the medical student is kind of lost and needs guidance. But I remember when I was there and how much I just wanted someone to help me out – or just acknowledge that I needed some help and an attempt would be made later if there were pressures on time. I feel as though I’ve started to kind of rag on the experience of being a medical student – and there were so many moments I was so happy and proud of what I was doing. But there were just as many painful, awkward moments… so I would like to aspire to helping in those moments one faces as medical student during my time as a resident!! :)

I also like to write orders. It’s like when you’re a kid and you watch a grown up do things, and now I’m a big girl :) So it feels pretty cool! :)